afiendiary

I'am a girl trying to find myself in this darkness I've made. Searching for light and learning lessons on the way. I'm smart and born into a drug family and with two parents dead from over dosing. I used to be opitmistic and now I'm sort of not. I'm finding out the real ways for friends the world and instincts that i should listen to, but i dont most od the time. I'm a woman screaming to be heard and sometimes wanting to be dead but mostly wanting to be happy and content. will i ever find it or keep making horrible desions. That is the future we r in the now.